so that is the 'awlawiyaat'.....

this is my decision.....i will stay here for almost 2months until the exams end....it's ok.....saya akan bertabah....

now.....here i am....sitting alone....working on those journals....sometimes stuck at 'my bleach'...that 'ichi-ruki' world...haha....or sometimes finding myself drowning in the world of 'shin-ran'....i don't know why....until now i still can't resist the temptation of those manga and anime....i just can't...heeee....

whatever......

i try to heal that wound.....but somehow i realise it just can't.....

hey myself!!...just relax......it's ok.....i know i missed them so much.....but just chill.....after all of this end....we will meet ok.....don't be sad.....smile my dear....=)...


ohoo....dear my readers....jangan pening2...ini bukan kisah sedih....ini hanya kisah saya yang terlalu kecewa kerana tak dapat balik kampung......and honestly....ini kisah sengal kan???....hoho...sila angguk dan bersetuju sekarang....

but still...saya sedih jugak....tapi xpe la.....abaikan perasaan sedih yang keterlaluan dan tak bertempat ini sekarang.....huuu

yesterday i think i don't know what is the 'awlawiyaat' anymore.....but today somehow i just find that meaning again.......

i will stay here.....finish up my assignments.....working on my studies......and preparing for that exam battle which will come very very soon......i don't want to shoot for the stars.....not moon or sun anymore.....i know i just can't.....i really finding myself almost fall down to earth...very near to earth......so i think....it just ok if i can stay at the sky and flying freely.....discovering how beautiful my life and my world from that blue sky......my dear God...the most merciful Allah......please fulfill this wish......please give me the whatever that You know the best for me....amin......

so that is the 'awlawiyaat'........right dear mr.myhero???

'mengutamakan yang paling utama antara yang utama....'

i know that and this is my decision.......and i always hope you will be by my side to always make me calm....to share everything with me.....to be the very best friend that i ever had....you will always with me right???....=)

and then....i want to copy my dear ayai's quote....*i'm copying from you incik ayai!*...=P

'far have we come...yet far still to go.....until the season ends......wait and hope'......

p/s:
1.i will have a small gather-gathering tomorrow with my dear 'siblings' for the revenge of all this......enjoy yourself dear myself!!...=)

2.unfortunately that dear mr.myhero fall sick.....get well soon my love.....take care of yourself coz i can't do that now.....but i'll always pray for you......=)