randomness.....

looking life through the eyes.....thinking of how long our times have gone....and how far the life separated us.....how different all of us now.....it just like in the blinking of eyes......everything change rapidly with no hands can stop it......



today i met my friends...hang out together.......having a little 'reunion'...because not enough of us are there.....talking about life.....talking about our old moments together.....talking about works.....love...future.....and so many things.......and blended with laugh.....smiles...teasing each other......cam whore....and also sadness and cries......and when everything was done....when everyone had go back to our real life.....that's the time of thinking.......



how i miss them so much.....how i miss our lifetime together.....how i miss the 'real' them that i know some other day before.....but then i realize...that me myself also have change in so many ways.......not only them....but also including me.....peoples change.....i know that.....



5 years are just too short to measure the bond of friendship......even when now...we are separate in our own ways....our own life.....but we still know that we always have each other......no one can take that place.....it just the matter of time which can't let us just be together forever.....nobody can deny that.......



but...one that i know.....that our past are not what i will choose for my life entirely......i've decide this......i love them....i miss them so much.....i miss our life back together....but i don't want it again......it just a past time....a history....our history.......just let it go and stay as a history......



i have my life now....we all have our own life now......we have our aim for the future.....everything are different and everyone have the right to decide this by ourselves....i can do nothing for them...so do they.....what can i do...just pray.....may Allah always bless us....bless them who i love so much......and give us strength to walk through our road......insya'Allah amin.....

'kita tak boleh ikutkan kati.....namun kita perlu punya hati....
lalu apa yang boleh???
kawal lah hati......bukan biarkan kita dikawal hati.....'

p/s: sometime i just hate this stupid hormones...make me cry all the times for nothings....haishh......pms.....please lah....don't make me like this......